Random Thoughts

I haven't bothered with this blog since last summer because I don't feel like I have anything earth shattering to say about parenthood. It is what it is. Some days we laugh our butts off at the bizarre things the boys do and say, and other days we want to slam our heads into a wall out of frustration.

As the boys get older, though, I find I can relax more and enjoy their company in a way I couldn't when they were babies and toddlers who relied on us (me) for every little thing. The big guy turned 5 in January, and his little brother is 2.5yrs. One potty trained kid and one on his way. I am already dreaming of diaperless days in our household. Such a freeing state of being. And since they're both boys, I don't even worry about long car trips. They can pee anywhere: by the side of the road, in an empty Gatorade bottle. Who cares? When we get to stop buying the little man diapers, we are FREE!

I have already begun to notice how our house is becoming cleaner and more organized, bit by bit, as the boys become more able to do things for themselves. For those of you who have seen my house, I don't mean it's now ready for House Beautiful or anything. I just mean that sometimes beds get made, and often there is more than just a path through the toys in the living room. It's far from perfect, but it is improving. All because the boys spend more time playing with each other than relying on me for their every happiness. It's bittersweet, certainly, but it's the way parenting goes. If you do the job right, the kids grow up and leave you, maybe calling you once a week to let you know they still care.

I'm doing all I can to enjoy these last years of real "kidhood" in our house. Already P is a little man instead of a boy, and H is moving up to those ranks quickly. I've got the lawn mower all ready for them when the time comes.